Urrealist, Constellation

Hunt for the Holy
1/3/2005

CALL AND DIRECTION TO ACTIVISTS, COUNSELORS AND SEEKERS
Christopher

Holy: (breath)

I see you!
My children, I see you.

(breath)

Are you calling for directions?

(breath)

Shall I speak of Calling and Direction?

(breath)

The are times that the young in body are ancient in Soul.

(breath)

The old Souls have gathered
and the Ancient has come among you to be new, to be renewed.
Such is the Way of the Holy.
The Ancient comes to the Now
The Ancient is reborn,
is given new life and new direction.

(breath)

So you come to the Holy,
to the Ancient of Ancient seeking direction.
You call, and I tell you, the Holy comes to your Now, to grow in the direction you take,

(breath)

to delight in the turns you make,

(breath)

to be expanded in the moments you live.

(breath)

You seek direction from a Holy Rider,

(breath)

who delights in the turns.

(breath)

I shall speak of Calls and Direction.
For the Calls are many and the Directions are endless.

(breath)

The Call is of utmost importance: the call to the Holy, the Call of the Holy.

(breath)

Call to the Holy, my children.
Call to the Holy and find your Call from the Holy.
It is a conversation.
It is a relationship.
Call and you shall be heard.
Call and you shall hear.

(breath)

It is fundamental, elemental.
It is simple and yet so difficult.
There are many distractions to keep you from calling, to keep you from listening.

But I tell you, the Call is fundamental, is of importance.

And shall I tell you of Direction?
Shall I tell you of direction from the Holy Perspective?
From the Holy Perspective, it is not a "when", it is not a "where".
It is a "how"

(breath)

The Holy will not tell you, "Turn here." or "Go 3 days and make a left."

(breath)

You seek a map, but I tell you,
the map is not what you think..
The map is a sphere and in this sphere, north becomes south.
Travel east and you become on the west.
Left and right, up and down have no significance in the Holy.
It is a "how", not "when" to turn, "where" to go, but "how" to live the moments, my children.

The temporal moments are what the Holy seeks.
The Holy comes to your moments.
You invite the Holy to the Now
And herein, you discover the "How"
For when you bring the Holy into the Now, you live in the Presence of Holiness In the Presence of Holiness, the "when and the "where" dissolve.
For the Now is of importance.
The Eternal comes to the Now.
It is the Holy Way.
It is Incarnation.

The Merging of your spirit and the Holy in the Now enlightens your "when"!
It enlightens your "where"!
It does not matter the "where" or the "when."
It matters the Now.
The Now, when the Holy comes to the temporal.
The Now shall show you How.

Holy: The Now shall show you how.
When you live with the Holy, when you call and listen, you see possibilities, Holy possibilities.
You see the Spirit in the moment.
You see the Spirit in the people.
You know who is dry and who needs drink.
You know who is hungry and who needs fed.
And you know who has a well, a Well of Spiritual Water.
And you come to the Well and say, "I am thirsty!"

(breath)

I tell you, the Wells are many,
living among you,
the people of the Spirit.
The Holy is calling the people of the Spirit.
The Holy has always called the people of the Spirit, but I tell you, there is a time of shifting upon us, a great awareness coming into being.
It is coming.
It is coming, ready or not.
It is coming.

It is time for the Blossoming.
The Holy acts as the Holy acts.
How you respond defines you.
So, the Holy shall bring upon people, a new awareness.
The people shall respond as they respond.
So, the Lord is gathering the people of the Spirit to prepare the Way, so the response can bring Enlightenment!
Glory!
Praise and Relationship!
The Enlightenment is a Call!
Shall you listen?
And how shall you respond?

Holy: There are you who seek directions because you see the need and hear
the Call.
It is so simple to you, so plain to see the needs and the signs. You do not
run. You are ready to serve, ready to give, ready to go! Yet you wonder, "How
do I respond to them?" You see that need on the social level, Even larger, you
see things on the international level, all the while noticing the personal
level. That is the way you are. Yes.

(breath)

So, the people are plain to you. Their needs are as open as a book. Some
come wanting answers. Others come seeking advice. It can make you feel
inadequate. I shall tell you, the answers are not in you, but are beyond you. They are
not yours, but must come through you. When you feel inadequate, you search
within. You read the signs you know. The advice you give is good. It is
life-giving, positive, affirming. Your advice is as the Holy would desire it to be,
but I tell you, what you seek is Foundation in all the needs you see. It is
the Way of the Holy! The Holy comes to you. The Eternal comes to the Now.
The Holy works through you, in you, beyond you, at the same moment. It is a
Holy Task,
so do not feel inadequate. Open to your inadequacies! Let the Holy fill
them. What you seek is not direction. The directions, paths and choices before you
are all good, all positive and you hesitate, do you not, because there are
too many options. There are too many ways and needs.

(breath)

What you seek then is Foundation With Foundation, every choice is right.
Every Now is Holy, Every need is a possibility. In the Holy, brokeness brings
fulfillment. Emptiness yields completeness. Death begets life. When you sense
this, you do not run from the need. You can sense the possibilities in the
limitations.

But again I remind you, the possibilities are beyond you, are beyond any
social organization. So, activist, seek the Foundation that is the Holy.
Bring the Holy to the need. See in the emptiness the Holy Possibilities and
you will find Fulfillment. You will know the Transformation that is your
heart's desire.
You work for Transformation not for the self, but for the many.

Isn't this who you are, who you want to be? You can surrender to the Call of
your heart. You want to know how it shall be done? The choices are yours.

(breath)

The options are many.

(breath)

It is a blessing, though you do not see it to be so. Call to the Holy. Open
to the Holy. Know the Holy. Be firm in your foundation and you will see
Fulfillment.
The answers are beyond you, but can come through you, dear activist.

Holy: There are activists with a Sight to read the need.
When you have a Sight to read the need,
the people come to you with a surface problem.
and you see the depths.
You know the need.
Yes. you know the need and see the Seed.

(breath)

There are many seeds in any Soul.
There is the Holy Seed that can grow,
blossom and open to the Light of Holiness.

There is a seed, many seeds,
planted by the culture,
planted by the hurts,
planted by the injustice.
They too can grow, but in their shade there is no comfort.
There is only darkness.

You activists who read the need and see the Seed.
The answer is to show how to water the Holy Seed,
how to water the Holy Branches,
so the injustice and the hurt,
which shall always be present,
will not overshadow the Holy Purpose of the Soul.

How shall you organize
to fight the seed that will always be?
Is this not a fundamental question.

They shall always be.
If not one planter, then another shall come.
They shall plant desire.
They shall plant oppression.
They shall plant injustice.
"The poor will always be among us."
It is not a reason to surrender.
It is a reason to dig in.
Dig in, activists.
You will organize against the planters, yes.
You will whack down the weeds.
But, always read the need and see the Seed.
Always, my activists.

Water the Holy Plants of the Soul.
Fighting the planters will not bring Fulfillment, only activity.
Fulfillment in the activity is from the Holy

So you will not be totally victorious against the planters,
but you will see the people transformed.
You will come seeking to help the temporal need,
but you will see the Eternal Seed.
So, it is a Holy Task, is it not,
to come to the Now to see in the need a possibility?

Holy: Where shall you find the Foundation? Some of you look around at your
culture. You see in your family. Where is the Foundation? It can seem so
hollow, so empty, so superficial. Well, you must dig in deeply here, as well. It is
what is lacking, is it not?
You are ready to dig in deeply for the people. Will you dig in deeply for the
Holy?
If yes, you have another choice, do you not? This is a fundamental choice.
Which tradition shall you dig into? For I tell you, every tradition has a Root
in the Holy. Dig and you shall discover the Holy. And I tell you something
else, the journey is best in community.
Certainly you can dig in by yourself, but there is power, sharing, and
expansion when the digging is done with others. So, what you do, is you see the
community and dig with them. This is what is lacking, is it not? -- a community
of diggers.
A community of diggers for the Holy is what you seek.

(breath)

Oohh! You have seen those "holy" diggers, but they are not digging the way
you would dig. Is this so? Oh, they are not digging at all. They tunnel under
the surface. You wish to go deeper. You wish to find integrity. This is your
prayer my activst. A prayer for community, to find the diggers who dig for
integrity, for Holiness, and activity among the people. For the Holy shall come to
the people! The Holy shall work through the people!
For the people! It is the Holy Way.

And I tell you, your activity will find Fulfillment. Shall you not seek the
community of diggers, to learn how and when and where to dig to find the
Foundation, your Place among the Holy? The Holy Calls to you, my activist Call to
the Holy. Ask and you shall be given Sight and find Unity

Holy: The Journey is wonderful, even with mis-steps and mistakes.
A lifetime, my activist, is a step, a phase, a moment. Think of it as high
school. When you are beyond high school, it seems not so significant, But at the
time, it is consuming.
So, you have moved on and you shall move on from this moment.
I tell you, some people do indeed repeat the grade. Some, indeed are held
back.
And some graduate on and on and on and on. And some do all of these things at
one time or another.

(breath)

It is the Way of the Holy.

(breath)

No Soul is wasted.

(breath)

It all comes back.
The Re-unification is ultimate -- Ultimate Fulfillment.

Holy: You must know there is a trap in your Gift. You commit, do you not? You
commit and when so many people go from here to there, you focus. Shall I tell
you, the danger of your Gift is to over-commit.

(breath)

to feel responsible, to over-commit. Sometimes the help is beyond you, dear
activist,
and you must release this. Sometimes, the best help is simply to point and to
go.
What you need is the one to bring you comfort, to bring YOU comfort, and it
shall be mutual. Are you weary of being the comforter? You can over-comfort.
You can see your Purpose as the comforter and tire and drain yourself. The
Lord G-d is the Comforter. You are a vehicle, a vessel for the Spirit. The Power
of Comfort is beyond you and shall come through you, But if you work of
yourself, from yourself, you shall tire.

(breath)

There is a time, you must store up comfort before you can give it. From the
external, it will seem that you are hibernating, but internally you will be
storing up Holiness. Seek the one of Strength. Seek the one of Foundation. Seek
the one who will comfort and nurture, for even such people need a comforter.

(breath)

You will learn, there is only so much you can do, but the Holy can do more
than you can imagine. See your own limitations and where you are at your end,
the Holy begins.

(breath)

I do not seek to speak in riddles, but you must understand, the choices are
yours.
I can tell you Holy Patterns and you make the choices.

(breath)

Holy: You wonder if you are too naīve when you always look for the good, for
too much good in the bad of this world. If you are naīve, then the Holy is
naīve. Look and see the good. Yes, that is Holy, but be not deceived. Be not
deceived, for there are troubles in the currents. It is not naīve to celebrate
the good and the Holy. It is naīve to be deceived.
You are not naīve. You are NOT naīve when you are not deceived.
You are not naīve when you see the temptations and the un-holy.
Be like the Holy and see the good. Be like the Holy and wish to nurture, to
ignore the
un-holy, but not to be deceived. "Be as gentle as sheep, as wise as serpents"
It is a Holy Task, a Holy Way. You shall learn to trust what your heart tells
you.
The heart sees the good and the mind is not deceived. Such is the compromise
of the Holy, to nurture the Holy despite the crusts and see the Glow.

Holy: (breath)

I shall tell you, there are times the darkness must be named. Before there
can be cleansing, there are times the darkness must be named. Before the
cleansing, you will know and discern the times There is a time to voice what is
good and there is a time to name what is dark. The time of naming the darkness
is close to the time of cleansing. It is close to the time of purging, the
time of Holy Transformation. It is a Holy Pattern.

But I tell you, the Transformation is of G-d, of the Holy. The
Transformation is not of you. It shall come through you, but It is not of you. It is a
time, it is a time of great courage, the time of naming and casting away.

I tell you something you do not want to know, something you fear, something
you ignore.
There is evil, my children. There is evil. It comes in many forms, many
layers and many levels, but it feeds, as a parasite, on weakness, on
vulnerability. The Holy also comes to weakness and vulnerability. The Holy makes
weakness a strength. The Holy makes vulnerability an opening for transformation, but
the ways of the world are not the ways of the Holy and the ways of the world
open vulnerability as a wound,
to become a cankerous sore, opens weakness to become a site of despair.

(breath)

There will be times when the darkness shall be named in order to clear the
wound and open the door to goodness and Holiness. So yes, it is good to name
the good. It is good and Holy and Right to name the good, but you will know the
time for naming the darkness.
It is the weakness and the vulnerability, the site of un-holy attachment and
the Door of Transformation, both. It is a paradox of the Holy.

(breath)

Sometimes, to say is only to ask. Sometimes the naming is not yours. People
know their own vulnerabilities and weaknesses. They know, they know it is
not right.
It does not seem to be fulfilling. They know the flirting and the floating is
tiresome,
Yet, they do not know another way. It is not necessary for you to name.
Sometimes it is necessary for you to call and ask for the naming to come
forth.
To be a namer is to seem to be a judge. People do not like to be judged.
The Lord G-d does not judge. Sometimes it is an asking:

"Is there a pain here?"

"I have seen this sadness, what is the sadness you feel?"

"This seems desperate. What is it you run from?"

(breath)

"Is this getting tiring to you?"

"Is this getting tiring to you, I think I should find it tiring. What is
it?"

It is not for you to know. You do not ask because you want to know, you ask
so it can be spoken, named. What is named can be cast away. Before it is
named, it resided unacknowledged. So, the darkness shall be named and the Holy
shall be named!
For when the Holy is named, the Holy is acknowledged and when the Holy is
acknowledge, the relationship begins! How can you have relationship with that
which is not acknowledged? How can you speak! When the listener is not known?
Do you see the balance!? Know the Holy! Call to the Holy and the Holy shall
come!
Know the darkness. Name the darkness and it shall be cast away to make room
for the Holy. Both are necessary.

Is it clear? You do not always know what to call the darkness. That
knowledge comes from elsewhere. Sometimes people know their own darkness. Sometimes it
is a journey to discover. It is the Journey of the Counselor.

(breath)

You do not have to know. You have to journey. The journey gives its own
answers,
sometimes surprising, sometimes delightful.

(breath)

Holy: You Seekers! Are you seeking? Do you know the seeking and the
searching?
Have you wondered why the seeking and the searching is intense in you,? More
intense than in others, it seems. It comes from a yearning. This yearning is
not a weakness.
It is of the Holy. It is your Soul. It is your Spiritual Essence,
That-which-is-of-God in you. It yearns for connection and in you the connection is
Understanding.
Others seem to have a certainty and yet, you seek Understanding.
You puzzle. You seek and puzzle, puzzle and seek. You have hidden now and
then. You hide and seek and puzzle. You have Hidden from the Holy and wished
for the Holy to find you! "If the Holy is the Holy, the Holy can find me!" It
has been a game. I do not say this to chastise, for games are fun, a Delight.
You Seekers, the game, the seeking, the hiding, the finding, the searching,
the yearning, is all a part of what is Holy in you. What is Holy in you is
Yearning, but you have been given a mind that seeks answers.
These are just confirmations. It would be nice to have confirmations,
wouldn't it?

It is not a bad way to be, to be a Seeker.
What you need is to know where to seek.
There are many possibilities, many possibilities.
It can seem hard to find a single one that calls to you?
You may like what you see,
in this Way, in that Way,
and a little bit over there?
In this way, you know comparative religion

(breath)

There is a playfulness in you

(breath)

and there is a seriousness in you.

(breath)

Can you be serious in your playfulness
and playful in your seriousness?
It is a good way!
It is a good way to be!

Mm, but it can be confusing.
It can be delightful.
It can be both! Ho!

(breath)

Holy: (breath)
It is a fundamental question, isn't it?,
How to be the best,
to be the delight,
to be a servant to others,
to be a vehicle.

What you wish is to how to be a Vehicle, a Vessel.
To be a Vehicle and a Vessel of the Holy,
To play with the Holy,
among the Holy,
within the Holy,
and also to serve,
to play and serve,
to serve and play.

There is more playfulness than you allow.
You do not have to feel guilty about playfulness,
for the Holy delights in such.
So, you are asking the "How"
You are not asking the "when" or the "where"
You may think there must be a single "How"
If there are many wheres and many whens,
Why should there be a single How?
There is a single How, A single How with many ways.
What you seek is your Way.
There is a single How,
a Way of Being in the Holy
a Way of Living in the Holy
It is the Holy Way to be open in the moment
in the time that is given
and let the opening call to action.

And the ways of discovering this How are multiple,
reaching out,
branching forth from the Holy Tree
as many Roots,
many Branches,
all leading to the Holy in the Center.

(breath)

You may have already chosen a Root, yet you wonder.
For there are adequacies, problems, and things that don't make sense in this
Root
Those things do not seem correct and they don't sit right with your heart,
But there are other things that are beautiful!
Desirable!
They fan the flames of your Yearning.
They call to you and you return.
Mmm, it is the way with every Way. (the Holy laughs)
(the Holy speaks while laughing) It is the way with every Way!
So you seek the strength of the Root
to find your Way to the How.
There are other Roots and other Branches
And I shall tell you, it is OK.
It is OK to compare and see:
"This Root has something to add."
" That Branch has something I like."
You can remain on your Root,
the Root of your Inheritance,
the Root of your heritage
and learn from the others,
to combine so that your Way is slightly different
because it makes sense to YOU
because you want to understand the Way to the Holy,
the Holy How,
What the Lord had given you is a Yearning.
You have a Heart for G-d,
a Yearning for the Holy.
It is a Gift.
It shall send you on a Journey to the Holy.
There are times when the Root doesn't seem to resonate,
but what the Yearning tells you,
does not negate the strength of the Root.
It does not negate the validity of your Yearning.
Your Yearning is unique.
It is the Delight of the Holy.
Shall I tell you, the Holy comes to the Now.
The Holy comes to the temporal,
to seek new possibilities, new articulations.
The How is Eternal.
The How is Singular.
The How has always been, shall always be,
but your way and the how is unique, is a Delight.
How shall you be a Delight to your Father, the Intimate Part of G-d?
Is this what you name Abba?
This Intimate Part?
This Caretaker,
this Guide of the Holy.
How shall you be a Delight but to be what you have been created to be.
To find your Way and to bring new possibilities to the Holy.
So! You seek the How, the Eternal How.
The Tao is what you seek. Mm!
The How, the Eternal Tao, the Way, but I tell you,
your part of the Way, your Way to the How, shall be unique, shall be a
Delight!
So, seek my Seekers! Seek!
Seek and find!
Search and question!
Do not be ashamed of a doubt, for a doubt is a Doorway.
A doubt sets you on a Path of Enlightenment.
Do not run from the doubt.
Dive into it!

It shall lead you further,
to the Root,
downward,
inward
And you shall find that you are not going away from the Tree, but to It.
For the Tree of Life is not as a tree on the Earth.
The Tree of Light is circular, spherical
The Roots reach out and reach in at the same time.
Follow the Root.
Dig deeply.
Follow the questions
Seek and find
The Holy does indeed hide for the Seeker to find.
It is the Way of the Holy, frustrating sometimes, but necessary.
For there are such people as yourself sometimes, Seekers.
And what is the value of being a Seeker when there is nothing to find?
Seek and find
And you shall find the Delight when the Holy says'
"Ollie, Ollie in-come-free"
come into this new awareness, this new discovery,
for the Holy is here.
Seek! My Seeker!
Find!
It is a Delight.
It does not matter your career.
It does not matter your when, you can seek wherever you are,
For the Holy is there.
You have known this, though it may be something that concerns you greatly.

(breath)

Holy: There is no progress in the Holy, only expansion. The Holy does not
get better, it gets bigger. The Holy celebrates circularity, not linearity.
Progress is linear, is it not? "This is better than that." "This is more advanced
than that." In the Holy, there is no progress and the Now and the How come in
Unity. The How has always been, shall always be.
But there is a paradox, is there not? The Eternal is complete! The Lord G-d
is complete!
The Lord G-d is full and yet, the Lord G-d expands. How is it that which is
complete,
that which has no lack, can be added unto? This is the Paradox of the Holy,
the Paradox of G-d. I tell you, you add to the Holy. It is why every Spark is
sought, nothing is wasted
Even when one is lost, the Holy seeks, for that one has the potential to add
to the Holy.

That which is complete, that which cannot be progressed is made new in you,
is delighted with every Spark. The Great Flame of G-d increases in brightness.
The brightest Bright, the Brightness that cannot increase, is increased in
you,
in everyone. This is not progress is it? This is Expansion.

But I tell you, the way of the world celebrates progress and progress always
dismisses what has been. It seeks for what is more. This is not the Way of the
Holy.
The Holy celebrates the Eternal How. The Eternal does not get better, for
that which is better dismisses what is not itself. You see? The Lord G-d does not
dismiss you.
The Lord G-d does not dismiss anything or anyone. The Lord G-d, which is
complete,
does not see itself as better, and yet, the Lord G-d is Ultimate.

It is the Way of the Holy and shall you all not behave as the Holy behaves?
How is it the Eternal shall come to you, the broken and the limited, in
humility,
asking and inviting for you to accept.

The Lord G-d says to you, "Accept me."
Does that which is better say to that which is less, "Accept me."? No! That
which is better says, "Be me! for you are nothing if you are not me!"
It is the way of the world.
It is not the Way of the Holy.

The Holy says, "Accept me and I shall be more with you."
"With you, little you, little insignificant nothing you, are everything to me.
so I come to you and I say, "Accept me. I will accept you.
Together we will be more, not better, but more."

Perhaps this has been on your heart. Progress is so dominant here where you
are.
Progress, progress, always progress. Is it better? Is this better than that?
That seemed sufficient and this does seem better, but to what end? To what end
is better "better"?

Well, to the Lord G-d, the end is Ultimate, is Surrender, Expansion of
Holiness.
Is it better?
It is Expansion.

That which is complete, expands, grows and knows.
It is why the Holy comes to the Now, to know, to grow, to learn.

It is the Reason for Creation.

The Lord G-d was All, was Complete, and the Lord G-d broke open, a great
expansion,
an explosion of Self and the Sparks flew forth, and the Sparks became
possibilities of life,
of love, expansion, and Delight.

But because the Lord G-d released, there is also the possibility of denial,
self-absorption, and progress.

So, you all have a choice. The Lord G-d says, "Come and participate, bring
what you are to me." You can choose to do so or not.
It is the Way of the Holy. So I tell you, upon you now is a new consciousness
coming,
a new revelation and you can participate or not.

It is your choice. No matter what, the Lord G-d brings the invitation, always
and forever, the Invitation exists. "Come, come accept Me, for I am in you,
shall you not be in Me?"
"Shall you not abide in the Holy Whole?" "Will you not bring home your Spark?"

(breath)

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transcribed by chrisdog